I called the hematologist's office a week ago to make an appointment for the clotting issue. The receptionist said she couldn't do it on the spot. The team has to review my case first, then they make a decision about when I need to be seen and by whom. Okay. Incidentally, their practice isn't just for patients with fertility issues. They mostly see people with cancer and HIV/AIDS. So, I can see why they would need to sort things out before making appointments. That's fine.
But that was a week ago. I feel like it's a little soon to call and pester them, seeing as they did explain the process to me. So I'll wait a bit more. Twiddle, twiddle. I'm certainly no stranger to dealing with unknowns and indefinite waits. Twiddle, twiddle. It is the lot of the infertile girl, no?
And my husband and I are on hold from trying, anyway. Doc wants us to wait until my cycles are more normal. He wondered if I might have been pregnant (very very briefly) with my period being so late last time. Hmph, who knows? Nothing for us to do about it, anyway. Nothing but wait.
Nothing but wait AND use protection. I ovulated last night; I'm sure of it. I get unmistakable electric pangs in my side when I do. And hubby was feeling amorous, so we had relations. With a condom. Completely anathema to the yearnings of this crazed wanna-be parent...
But we're being good little patients and following instructions. Really, what else can we do?
Twiddle, twiddle.
UPDATE: I got a letter from the hematologist's office today. I have an appointment for Dec. 2nd, just in time to miss my next ovulation. So that probably means we won't be trying again until at least Christmas. My thumbs should be in great shape by then! Hmm, hopefully I'll get it together and work on the rest of me, too.
Boy do I sympathise about the waiting game. Every time I think about it, I hear the Tom Petty song The Waiting is the hardest Part...
I hope your hormones sort themselves out sooner rather than later. it took me almost 10 weeks to finally start having periods again after my last D&C, but I seem to be right back on schedule, with no. 3 on its way. We'll just wait together, eh?!
Posted by: Lola | November 01, 2005 at 10:42 AM
Sounds good. Sorry you're stuck, too, but it is nice to have company :-)
Posted by: pixi | November 01, 2005 at 10:57 AM
I can only imagine how frustrating that must be. I hope the clinic gets back to you soon. I would have thought that hassling them tomorrow would be reasonable. It's only your life, here, after all.
Posted by: thalia | November 01, 2005 at 01:15 PM
Yes, you're right, Thalia. Patience and understanding are fine, but they only get you so far. After a certain point, it's time to speak up!
Posted by: pixi | November 01, 2005 at 01:32 PM
Yep, phone and hassle them!
Posted by: Pamplemousse | November 01, 2005 at 03:10 PM
I'm totally with you on the waiting, and how frustrating it is to have to use bc while we DO want to conceive. I'm going to be on the pill for the next two months. ARGH!
Posted by: Nico | November 01, 2005 at 05:14 PM
BTW, like the new 'about' pic. More info?
Posted by: Nico | November 01, 2005 at 05:21 PM
Hi Nico,
Yes, update probably tomorrow. Just had to get out my frustration about waiting today.
I was heartbroken reading your blog today. So sorry things didn't work out. I'm thinking of you constantly...
Posted by: pixi | November 01, 2005 at 05:26 PM
That's the problem with fertility treatments... there's altogether too much twiddling involved. What's a results-oriented girl to do?
Posted by: Manuela | November 01, 2005 at 06:21 PM
Yeah, the twiddling sucks. (Unless it refers to nipples or dangly bits). Our whole life seems to be waiting and passing time, pixi, well said.
Posted by: OvaGirl | November 02, 2005 at 02:45 AM
Ditto on the twiddling. Looks like we might be starting again at about the same time.
Posted by: fisher queen | November 02, 2005 at 07:39 AM
Thank goodness we all have each other to twiddle with? Um...you know I mean!
Posted by: pixi | November 02, 2005 at 07:59 AM
Oh, my! Pixi gets SAUCY!
Posted by: Manuela | November 02, 2005 at 12:45 PM
More diddling and less twiddling!! Wait, does that make sense?! Sorry you can't get an appt til Dec. If you're feeling up to it, harass the Hell out of the receptionist and maybe she'll call you with a cancelation. What? It could happen.
Posted by: mm | November 02, 2005 at 01:35 PM
If only diddling could work...
Posted by: fisher queen | November 02, 2005 at 02:14 PM
From one twiddling sister to another! CHEERS!
Waiting is a bitch.
I absolutely love your blog!
Posted by: Julianna | November 02, 2005 at 10:14 PM
UGH - how frustrating to have to wait a month for your appointment! I'm so totally not challenging you to a game of thumb wrestling, with all that twiddling, no doubt you'd kick my butt!
Maybe we can twiddle together as I wait for my first RE appointment...
Posted by: Lori | November 02, 2005 at 10:35 PM
Twiddle, twiddle. Waiting right along with ya dearie. It sucks.
Posted by: Lisa P. | November 03, 2005 at 10:51 PM